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primroseburrows) wrote2007-05-25 02:19 pm
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I've sat upon the setting sun, but never never, never never, I've never wanted water once
Wow. This took longer than I thought. A lot of stream-of-consciousness, and woah, it really does help me as far as writing goes. Some of this stuff I didn't know before I started.
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Benton Fraser...
...thought he was Inuit, when he was very young. He had Inuit friends, played Inuit games, wore Inuit clothing, ate and drank and slept Inuit culture. Inuktitut and English are equally milk languages for Fraser and as a young boy he only spoke English at home.
...was entirely homeschooled except for grades four and five, when he lived in an area long enough to attend the local primary school. His experience there was less than stellar, to say the very least, and definitely doesn't need exploring at this juncture.
...has a completely irrational attitude about his hat. He's well aware that wearing it without the rest of the uniform is inappropriate (and even worse, against regulations), but wearing it makes him feel more secure. If it weren't for the fact that Ray would never let him live it down, he'd probably wear it to black-tie events.
...did not have a dull, boring, childhood filled with nothing but books. He had friends, played hockey, and even watched television occasionally, although his grandparents didn't own one and he never liked it much. Cliché as it may sound for someone raised by librarians, he really does prefer books to other forms of media.
...likes his name; that is, he likes "Benton" as opposed to benign diminutives such as "Ben". He does allow himself a certain fondness for Ray Vecchio's use of "Benny"; however he thinks of it as a term of endearment rather than an actual name.
...has no official middle name. If pressed for one, he'll tell you about the name he was given by a Tsimshian Elder, but he won't tell you what it is. Ray doesn't even know.
...was once offered the opportunity to become a professional storyteller. He declined, because to Fraser the very idea of being paid for such a thing bordered on the absurd, if not the sacrilegious.
...watches Diefenbaker move into middle age with grace and surprisingly few complaints, and attempts to do the same. He's also very aware that someday his friend will be old, infirm, and quite possibly in pain. He hopes he has the strength to honour Dief's request to him if and when it should come to pass.
...is a true bisexual, an exact three on the Kinsey scale. It's never been an issue, and he rarely gives it a conscious thought.
...doesn't drink more than the occasional (once or twice a year) glass of wine because he hates the idea of losing control in such a manner.
...never wanted to be a Mountie until after his mother died and he went to live with his grandparents.
...was never in love with Ray Vecchio. How could one possibly fall in love with one's brother?
...had actual feelings for Denny Scarpa; however, his experiences with Victoria had taught him an important lesson. He was suspicious enough of Denny to have her investigated, and subsequently found that she was dirty. If he hadn't, he might have let himself get closer to her emotionally. He was pretty pissed at her for using him the way she did. And no, he wouldn't have let her fall off the building, but the two-handed switch thing made him feel damn good, because it was for her and for Victoria.
...knew he'd never been in love with Victoria the day he admitted to himself that he was in love with Ray Kowalski. After that, he wondered how he could have mistaken guilty obsession for anything remotely resembling love.
...thinks about Meg Thatcher often, and now that enough time has passed, fondly. He hopes she is as content with her life as he is with his own.
...never thought for a second that Ray wouldn't be able to adapt to living in the Arctic. He thinks Ray can do anything he wants to do once he puts his mind to it. He's unspeakably glad that what Ray wants to do is be with him.
...lies all the time. He just doesn't call it that, is all, even to himself.
...thinks his mother said more in one silent touch than his father did in two years of haunting, or thirty-some years of parenting. He misses them both, every single day.
...has a copy of this poem framed and hung on a wall next to his front door so he can be sure to see it every morning when he leaves for work. He's enough of a heretic to think that these commandments make more sense than do the ones in the Bible. He's reasonably sure that most, if not all of them are also far more difficult to achieve:
People are often unreasonable, illogical and self-centred.
Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives.
Be kind anyway.
If you are successful, you will win friends, some false and some true.
Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you.
Be honest and frank anyway.
What you spend your life building, someone destroys overnight.
Build anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous.
Be happy anyway.
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow.
Do good anyway.
Give the best you have, and it will never be enough.
Give the world your best anyway.
You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God.
It was never between you and them anyway.
Seriously, I had to stop myself. Oh, the sheer meta of it all.
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scriggle:Benton Fraser...
...thought he was Inuit, when he was very young. He had Inuit friends, played Inuit games, wore Inuit clothing, ate and drank and slept Inuit culture. Inuktitut and English are equally milk languages for Fraser and as a young boy he only spoke English at home.
...was entirely homeschooled except for grades four and five, when he lived in an area long enough to attend the local primary school. His experience there was less than stellar, to say the very least, and definitely doesn't need exploring at this juncture.
...has a completely irrational attitude about his hat. He's well aware that wearing it without the rest of the uniform is inappropriate (and even worse, against regulations), but wearing it makes him feel more secure. If it weren't for the fact that Ray would never let him live it down, he'd probably wear it to black-tie events.
...did not have a dull, boring, childhood filled with nothing but books. He had friends, played hockey, and even watched television occasionally, although his grandparents didn't own one and he never liked it much. Cliché as it may sound for someone raised by librarians, he really does prefer books to other forms of media.
...likes his name; that is, he likes "Benton" as opposed to benign diminutives such as "Ben". He does allow himself a certain fondness for Ray Vecchio's use of "Benny"; however he thinks of it as a term of endearment rather than an actual name.
...has no official middle name. If pressed for one, he'll tell you about the name he was given by a Tsimshian Elder, but he won't tell you what it is. Ray doesn't even know.
...was once offered the opportunity to become a professional storyteller. He declined, because to Fraser the very idea of being paid for such a thing bordered on the absurd, if not the sacrilegious.
...watches Diefenbaker move into middle age with grace and surprisingly few complaints, and attempts to do the same. He's also very aware that someday his friend will be old, infirm, and quite possibly in pain. He hopes he has the strength to honour Dief's request to him if and when it should come to pass.
...is a true bisexual, an exact three on the Kinsey scale. It's never been an issue, and he rarely gives it a conscious thought.
...doesn't drink more than the occasional (once or twice a year) glass of wine because he hates the idea of losing control in such a manner.
...never wanted to be a Mountie until after his mother died and he went to live with his grandparents.
...was never in love with Ray Vecchio. How could one possibly fall in love with one's brother?
...had actual feelings for Denny Scarpa; however, his experiences with Victoria had taught him an important lesson. He was suspicious enough of Denny to have her investigated, and subsequently found that she was dirty. If he hadn't, he might have let himself get closer to her emotionally. He was pretty pissed at her for using him the way she did. And no, he wouldn't have let her fall off the building, but the two-handed switch thing made him feel damn good, because it was for her and for Victoria.
...knew he'd never been in love with Victoria the day he admitted to himself that he was in love with Ray Kowalski. After that, he wondered how he could have mistaken guilty obsession for anything remotely resembling love.
...thinks about Meg Thatcher often, and now that enough time has passed, fondly. He hopes she is as content with her life as he is with his own.
...never thought for a second that Ray wouldn't be able to adapt to living in the Arctic. He thinks Ray can do anything he wants to do once he puts his mind to it. He's unspeakably glad that what Ray wants to do is be with him.
...lies all the time. He just doesn't call it that, is all, even to himself.
...thinks his mother said more in one silent touch than his father did in two years of haunting, or thirty-some years of parenting. He misses them both, every single day.
...has a copy of this poem framed and hung on a wall next to his front door so he can be sure to see it every morning when he leaves for work. He's enough of a heretic to think that these commandments make more sense than do the ones in the Bible. He's reasonably sure that most, if not all of them are also far more difficult to achieve:
People are often unreasonable, illogical and self-centred.
Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives.
Be kind anyway.
If you are successful, you will win friends, some false and some true.
Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you.
Be honest and frank anyway.
What you spend your life building, someone destroys overnight.
Build anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous.
Be happy anyway.
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow.
Do good anyway.
Give the best you have, and it will never be enough.
Give the world your best anyway.
You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and God.
It was never between you and them anyway.
Seriously, I had to stop myself. Oh, the sheer meta of it all.
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sorry for complete lack of concrit. Brain is stuck on this one thought:
Paul is pretty.
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...likes his name; that is, he likes "Benton" as opposed to benign diminutives such as "Ben". He does allow himself a certain fondness for Ray Vecchio's use of "Benny"; however he thinks of it as a term of endearment rather than an actual name.
See, in fic RayK often starts calling him "Ben" when they become lovers. It's not as if this were a complete pet peeve of mine, it doesn't make the story less pleasurable for me, I just don't agree with that notion very much. Maybe that's a completely personal thing, but names have a certain sound for me (I'm sure that's true for everyone, but it's not the same sound for all of us). And for me, Fraser is not a "Ben". He just isn't. And so I like it when Ray either keeps calling him "Fraser" (because, yes, IMHO last names can be as familiar and gentle as first or nicknames), or starts calling him "Benton", because for me that's what he is.
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*hugs you for understanding him so well*
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(and I have a special fondness for what you said about the hat. ♥)
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Meanwhile back at the ranch, the Jays have been crawling out of the basement and it won't be long till we are chasing the Bosox down for the American League East pennant, despite the fact that our best pitcher has been on the sidelines.
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Now, that is so very fraser :-)
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The name thing is kin of odd. I can deal with RayK calling him "Ben" but I can also can understand when he just calls him "Fraser" or "Benton". Somehow I came to think that maybe Fraser would like Ray to rather not call him "Ben" because that's what Victoria did and we all know how that relationship turned out.
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I'm trying to figure out how I feel about the name issue. I can see the argument for his preferring 'Benton,' but I actually always saw him as preferring 'Ben,' if someone must call him by his first name. Two reasons on this: first, 'Benton' is the name of the older generation -- it's the name his father calls him, and Buck, and Quinn... does Gerard? I can't remember. I think so. And in my head I see him as wanting to see the sphere of that world and the sphere of his new life as different -- plus, most of the younger generation (RayV, Mark, Victoria) calls him Ben.
The other reason is Flashback, and I know, I know everything there has to be taken with a grain of salt! *g* but a lot of Flashback is 'what Fraser would say if he didn't have all those silly inhibitions,' and he does say that Benton is a ridiculous name! Which it kind of is.
In fic, though, I'm always thrown when RayK calls him Ben or Benton. Because, like... he's Fraser for Ray. Somehow I don't really see that changing even if they become lovers.
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I love your thought that he lies all the time, just doesn't recognise it as such.
And I know about being repressed, idealist and unconcernedly bisexual too.
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obsessioninsights. I hereby nominate you for Minister of Canon with Fanon Clusters.Victoria's Secret 1
Victoria's Secret 2
Letting Go
She posits that Fraser doesn't drink now because he was an alcoholic at some time earlier in his RCMP career. The pride he takes in self-control -- now -- is shockingly plausible in light of this interpretation -- what think you?
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