whoever said life is fair was lying. the same goes for lightning never striking twice.

[primroseburrows]

This afternoon I found Natalie on the bathroom floor. I don't know if she was having a seizure or a heart attack or what, but one thing she wasn't doing was breathing. I'm pretty sure she wasn't choking on anything because I swept her mouth and didn't find anything, and she didn't even gag. I rushed her out the door and into the car, but she was gone before we reached the emergency vet. I think she was gone before I got her out the door.

This wasn't the sad but somehow peaceful scene like what happened with Stormy--this was sudden and unexpected and there was no time to say goodbye. Up to then Nat had been fine-- eating and sleeping and meowing and being herself. She may have been a tiny bit quieter today, but I'm just guessing, who knows? The vet at the emergency place said they couldn't tell what happened, but it could have been anything from a seizure to heart failure. It was over in seconds, and I have no idea how or why and I probably never will. I could have asked for an autopsy, but what would be the point? I keep feeling guilty even though I know I'm being stupid because she was loved and fed and petted and cared for.

And now I've lost two cats in less than a week. WTF, God?

I can't remember a time when there wasn't a cat in my life.

Comments

[akamine_chan]

Oh, Prim, I'm so, so sorry. That's so unfair - losing both of them so close together and to not have time to say goodbye...that has to be the worst way to lose a beloved pet.

*hugs you tightly*

And you have no reason to feel guilty. Natalie was loved and petted and cared for. She had a good life; you can't let yourself doubt that.

[exbex.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry, Prim. Your cats were really lucky to have you as their human though.

[meresy.livejournal.com]

Oh nooo. That's terrible, but there wasn't anything you might have done different. Just very sad. *hugs*

[effervescent.livejournal.com]

Oh, sweetheart, I am so sorry. :( I can't imagine - losing one is hard enough, let alone two. ♥

[hurry-sundown.livejournal.com]

Oh geez, Prim. I'm so sorry. *hugs*

[elementalv.livejournal.com]

I am so, so sorry to hear that. It's always horrible to lose a pet, but I can't begin to imagine what it was like to lose two within a week. You have my deepest sympathy.

[sam80853.livejournal.com]

Oh no, Prim. ::hugs::... That is seriously fucked, excuse my French.

I hope you will find comfort in knowing that she was well-taken care off. That she had an awesome life with you.

::HUGS::

[fenlings]

I'm so sorry. Losing them both in a week does seem extreme. But who knows, maybe there is some reason they chose to go now, maybe your life is about to change in some other way. ::hugs::

[mrs-laugh-track.livejournal.com]

Oh honey I'm so sorry.

[ruthless1.livejournal.com]

I am so sorry to hear this. That is just so much to have to bear in just one week.

[jenn-unplugged.livejournal.com]

How horrible! I'm so sorry. :-(

[junesrose.livejournal.com]

Oh hun, I'm so sorry to hear about your cats. This is an awful thing. Know that I'm thinking of you and sending my love.

*hugs*

[isiscolo.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry for your loss. And don't feel guilty; it is not your fault.

[omphale]

Oh, sweetie. I'm so, so sorry.

[starflowers.livejournal.com]

That's awful, I'm so so sorry. *hugs* But if I know anything about cats, I know that they've got a way of finding you when they need you, so I'm sure it won't be too long until you've got another cat in your life.

I'm also pretty sure that I don't know anyone who would have given a lucky cat the best and most loved life possible, so you don't need to feel guilty about that.

[catwalksalone]

Oh, Prim, I am so very sorry for your loss. Please don't feel guilty, you have enough to handle already. Sometimes horrible things just happen no matter how we wish they wouldn't or how we wish we could have stopped them. *hugs and hugs*

[tx-cronopio.livejournal.com]

oh, sweetie -- my heart is aching for you this morning.

[luzula]

Oh, that's so sad, to lose both of them at the same time. *hugs*

Life should give you a break now.

[eldritchhobbit.livejournal.com]

I am so, so sorry. *huge hugs* You're in my thoughts.

[peacey.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Just *hugs*.

[sistermagpie.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry to hear that.:-(

[sidhefire.livejournal.com]

Oh no... Sending lots of sympathy and love your way.

[newleaf31.livejournal.com]

........................... :''''-(

Just... *biggest hug ever*.

[fspider.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry - please take care of yourself.

[aingeal8c.livejournal.com]

Oh I am so sorry *hugs* *hugs* *hugs*

You have no reason to feel guilty. But I understand the feeling.