whoever said life is fair was lying. the same goes for lightning never striking twice.

[primroseburrows]

This afternoon I found Natalie on the bathroom floor. I don't know if she was having a seizure or a heart attack or what, but one thing she wasn't doing was breathing. I'm pretty sure she wasn't choking on anything because I swept her mouth and didn't find anything, and she didn't even gag. I rushed her out the door and into the car, but she was gone before we reached the emergency vet. I think she was gone before I got her out the door.

This wasn't the sad but somehow peaceful scene like what happened with Stormy--this was sudden and unexpected and there was no time to say goodbye. Up to then Nat had been fine-- eating and sleeping and meowing and being herself. She may have been a tiny bit quieter today, but I'm just guessing, who knows? The vet at the emergency place said they couldn't tell what happened, but it could have been anything from a seizure to heart failure. It was over in seconds, and I have no idea how or why and I probably never will. I could have asked for an autopsy, but what would be the point? I keep feeling guilty even though I know I'm being stupid because she was loved and fed and petted and cared for.

And now I've lost two cats in less than a week. WTF, God?

I can't remember a time when there wasn't a cat in my life.

Comments

[sam80853.livejournal.com]

Oh no, Prim. ::hugs::... That is seriously fucked, excuse my French.

I hope you will find comfort in knowing that she was well-taken care off. That she had an awesome life with you.

::HUGS::

[primroseburrows.livejournal.com]

She had a couple of years with me, and before that was very well-loved by my niece and my sister. She'll be missed by all of us.

I still have your story, and will likely get it back to you Monday. Tomorrow is Juliana's first birthday party (she turns one year old on Christmas, where did the time go?), but Monday afternoon's wide open. *hugs*

Also? Your icon is beautiful.