whoever said life is fair was lying. the same goes for lightning never striking twice.

[primroseburrows]

This afternoon I found Natalie on the bathroom floor. I don't know if she was having a seizure or a heart attack or what, but one thing she wasn't doing was breathing. I'm pretty sure she wasn't choking on anything because I swept her mouth and didn't find anything, and she didn't even gag. I rushed her out the door and into the car, but she was gone before we reached the emergency vet. I think she was gone before I got her out the door.

This wasn't the sad but somehow peaceful scene like what happened with Stormy--this was sudden and unexpected and there was no time to say goodbye. Up to then Nat had been fine-- eating and sleeping and meowing and being herself. She may have been a tiny bit quieter today, but I'm just guessing, who knows? The vet at the emergency place said they couldn't tell what happened, but it could have been anything from a seizure to heart failure. It was over in seconds, and I have no idea how or why and I probably never will. I could have asked for an autopsy, but what would be the point? I keep feeling guilty even though I know I'm being stupid because she was loved and fed and petted and cared for.

And now I've lost two cats in less than a week. WTF, God?

I can't remember a time when there wasn't a cat in my life.

Comments

[suchthefangirl.livejournal.com]

(I know this was a few days ago, but I'm way behind again)

I don't have anything to say, I just wanted you to know that I am sending you my love and positive thoughts. It is a horrible thing to have happen. I had a similar thing happen with one of our dogs, and there is nothing that can make it better except time.

I am positive there was nothing you could have done to save her, and it sounds like she went quickly and painlessly. It's never an easy thing to loose a love one, but if they are going to go, going quickly and painlessly is best.

Much love and many hugs heading your way.

[primroseburrows.livejournal.com]

Aww, thanks, honey. *hugs* Yeah, she was pretty much gone when I found her, and I'd been home for hours, so I'm thinking it must have happened in seconds. The way she went was probably better for her, and the way Stormy went was better for us, because we got to say goodbye, but she had been ill for a while. There's really no good way to lose someone, though, but yeah, I'm glad it was quick.