whoever said life is fair was lying. the same goes for lightning never striking twice.

[primroseburrows]

This afternoon I found Natalie on the bathroom floor. I don't know if she was having a seizure or a heart attack or what, but one thing she wasn't doing was breathing. I'm pretty sure she wasn't choking on anything because I swept her mouth and didn't find anything, and she didn't even gag. I rushed her out the door and into the car, but she was gone before we reached the emergency vet. I think she was gone before I got her out the door.

This wasn't the sad but somehow peaceful scene like what happened with Stormy--this was sudden and unexpected and there was no time to say goodbye. Up to then Nat had been fine-- eating and sleeping and meowing and being herself. She may have been a tiny bit quieter today, but I'm just guessing, who knows? The vet at the emergency place said they couldn't tell what happened, but it could have been anything from a seizure to heart failure. It was over in seconds, and I have no idea how or why and I probably never will. I could have asked for an autopsy, but what would be the point? I keep feeling guilty even though I know I'm being stupid because she was loved and fed and petted and cared for.

And now I've lost two cats in less than a week. WTF, God?

I can't remember a time when there wasn't a cat in my life.

Comments

[akamine_chan]

Oh, Prim, I'm so, so sorry. That's so unfair - losing both of them so close together and to not have time to say goodbye...that has to be the worst way to lose a beloved pet.

*hugs you tightly*

And you have no reason to feel guilty. Natalie was loved and petted and cared for. She had a good life; you can't let yourself doubt that.

[exbex.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry, Prim. Your cats were really lucky to have you as their human though.

[meresy.livejournal.com]

Oh nooo. That's terrible, but there wasn't anything you might have done different. Just very sad. *hugs*

[primroseburrows.livejournal.com]

Everything I can find on the internet about sudden death in cats points to some kind of stroke or heart failure. It's possible she could have choked on something very small, but I'm thinking the heart failure is more likely.

Right now I'm still in shock, I think.


*hugs back*

[primroseburrows.livejournal.com]

She was my niece's cat to begin with, which makes me feel even worse. I know it's not my fault, but I guess it's human to feel like it is. *clings*

[primroseburrows.livejournal.com]

Thanks, dear. They were pretty awesome themselves. And I doubt I'll go TOO long without a kitty--it's lonely around here right now.

[effervescent.livejournal.com]

Oh, sweetheart, I am so sorry. :( I can't imagine - losing one is hard enough, let alone two. ♥

[primroseburrows.livejournal.com]

Thanks. I wasn't going to open this post up for comments, but I'm glad I did--your kind thoughts are so very welcome. *hugs*

[hurry-sundown.livejournal.com]

Oh geez, Prim. I'm so sorry. *hugs*

[elementalv.livejournal.com]

I am so, so sorry to hear that. It's always horrible to lose a pet, but I can't begin to imagine what it was like to lose two within a week. You have my deepest sympathy.

[sam80853.livejournal.com]

Oh no, Prim. ::hugs::... That is seriously fucked, excuse my French.

I hope you will find comfort in knowing that she was well-taken care off. That she had an awesome life with you.

::HUGS::

[primroseburrows.livejournal.com]

*hugs back*

[primroseburrows.livejournal.com]

She had a couple of years with me, and before that was very well-loved by my niece and my sister. She'll be missed by all of us.

I still have your story, and will likely get it back to you Monday. Tomorrow is Juliana's first birthday party (she turns one year old on Christmas, where did the time go?), but Monday afternoon's wide open. *hugs*

Also? Your icon is beautiful.

[primroseburrows.livejournal.com]

I'm still reeling, seriously. My kids are all, don't get another cat, but after a fashion, I think I will. I haven't been without one since, hmmm. I'm not sure if I ever have. I'm hoping one will find me. *g*

[fenlings]

I'm so sorry. Losing them both in a week does seem extreme. But who knows, maybe there is some reason they chose to go now, maybe your life is about to change in some other way. ::hugs::

[primroseburrows.livejournal.com]

maybe your life is about to change in some other way.

You know, I thought about that. Maybe there's a sea change coming. I hope it's something good. *hugs you tight*


On an un-sad, entirely unrelated note--in case you didn't get to see it--I recced you over here. :)

[fenlings]

D'aww, thank you! <3

[primroseburrows.livejournal.com]

How could I not rec one of my very favourite vids? :)

[mrs-laugh-track.livejournal.com]

Oh honey I'm so sorry.

[ruthless1.livejournal.com]

I am so sorry to hear this. That is just so much to have to bear in just one week.

[jenn-unplugged.livejournal.com]

How horrible! I'm so sorry. :-(

[junesrose.livejournal.com]

Oh hun, I'm so sorry to hear about your cats. This is an awful thing. Know that I'm thinking of you and sending my love.

*hugs*

[isiscolo.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry for your loss. And don't feel guilty; it is not your fault.

[primroseburrows.livejournal.com]

Me too. And thanks. *hugs*

[primroseburrows.livejournal.com]

It's weird, because, you're right, and I know it's not my fault, but still, it's such a freaking double-whammy.

Also, your icon makes me smile. :)